Sunday Personals Pt. 6

A Mother's Love...knows no Other....I wish you could feel they way I feel, to do what I'm about to do...it's pure and simple Love...This is for my Bo.

Those were the words I sang before I left NC.

My son was 12 when we left Indiana…We made our way to North Carolina the summer of 2005. It was during this time he started his own journey. There are many pieces that tell a story…Parts 4 and 5 tell his.

During our time in NC my son traveled a road filled with uncertainties…I look back now and understand how leaving a place he called home, left him feeling like he was alone trying to find his way…it wasn’t until later that I discovered something else would find him. The wrong sorts of people, the wrong sorts of pressure found my son. I look back now and understand how vulnerable he was learning to adapt to a whole new life in NC.

When I learned of my sons “activities” and the crowd that followed…I made a tough decision to let my son go…in search of his truth. This piece of my story shares my True Testimony and how it was Faith driven…

After my son left for Indiana the summer of 2009…I knew I had a difficult decision to make…

I worked for the University. I managed the Advising Center on campus for students attending college to become Teachers…I too was attending college, for the first time ever…I waited to attend college. I was a stay at home Mom for years and later worked…I never seemed to have the time to go to school…until I did…and then…I made a decision that would change my life again…After seeing the growth with my son and his departure from everything that happened in NC, I knew I had to make a decision to stay in NC or return to a place I NEVER saw myself going back too.

My son returned to school in August of 2009. He would be a sophomore. Trips were made to and fro to see one another…we came for Thanksgiving…he came for Christmas…months would pass and I prayed for God to show me a sign…should we stay…should we go…should he come back? The emotions that took place over the course of months were exhausting…my son missing his family and eager to have us with him…my heart torn to leave a place I called home. I loved North Carolina…so much had changed for me. Attending school. Working for the University…later becoming a Teaching Assistant and fell in love with my major…I developed a family of friends…I loved the community. The weather was great…the beach was my getaway…it was the one place I could go and leave all my cares behind…until I couldn’t.

Days, weeks, months…Prayers…I’ll never forget it…I’ve told this story DOZENS of times…and I NEVER tell a lie…and NEVER embellish a story…here goes:

Ok, there is a piece that will make you go (?) but remember, it’s One Piece at a Time…Ok, now here goes: My husband left to go to Indiana in March of 2010…there was something he had to take care of, besides being there for our son…My daughter and I remained in NC. We developed a system, so-to-speak…

She and I would start the day with work and school…afterwards, we would return home and go for our daily walk…we lived in the country…I loved it. The house was Home. There was a trail about ½ mile long and we would walk before dinner…on this day…a Thursday…we discussed what we would do…what will happen? Do we really move? I say to her...and remind her of scripture…Lean not into your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path…I say to her…I wish it was so easy that a road sign would drop down and say, “Move to Indiana” or “Stay in Carolina” I say to her…in His time, not ours…and we continued with our walk.

The next day I go to work, as usual…it was Friday, it was the Friday before spring break…it was quiet on campus…I had two student workers that assisted me in my office…on this day…I was a little “off” I was having an emotional day now with BOTH my fellas gone…when the second student assistant came in this day…I took her aside and tell her I’m having an off day…She tells me she understands with all I have going on…I tell her I pray about it but wish it was as easy to get an answer and see that road-sign…

The day was quiet and we return to the office, my student worker and myself…I sit at my desk…bored. I’m all caught up. Sooo I play a little game online…it was called Peggle on MSN…during the game there would be breaks, commercial breaks…and this is when it happens…

Ready? I’m sitting at my desk…the game pauses for a break…the commercial, advertisement, comes on….it is…a Road-sign…and it says: Welcome to Indiana…No Lie. I jump! from my seat…I run to my dear friend and advisor in the office and tell her…she was like a mother figure to me…and we both were faith driven women…I couldn’t believe it. Shock! It was then I knew the decision that had to be made…

Welcome to Indiana…Late Spring 2010.

This is where I leave you, until next Sunday’s continuation…

Be Good to You.

Smooches,

Lola