I’ve
been thinking…a nasty little habit of mine!
Ok,
for those of you who tuned into my Sunday Personals…and reading, “One Piece at
a Time”…you know a little more than you did from the Sunday before…
Monday,
Monday…The sun shines brightly in the sunlit sky…the clouds float effortlessly
as they drift without a care in the world…that’s me today.
Today
I feel rejuvenated…I appreciate the moments, even more, when the heaviness is
lifted. I started the day with my little one and running out the door EXTRA
early…frustration in tow…and off we go! I drop her at class and make my
daily phone calls…wondering how I’ll fit a full-time job back in my life with
all I’m doing now…anyway, I make my calls…I stop for a Starbucks “lil pick me
up”…and browse the local Target as I waited…patiently, letting my frustration fall away. I wasn’t rushed nor bothered. Just
bewildered with all the colors of spring and the little delights of Easter candy
filled aisles…Silence…just the ambiance of those around me…not a care in the world.
I stepped out in gray sweats, a black tee, and a light jacket…hair in a P-tail…and
not a lick of make-up…loved every minute of it…Why?
I
didn’t worry about how I looked…I didn’t fret over not having the means to buy
something I didn’t really need…I didn’t carry the weight of things out of my
control…living in the now…if only we could do this every day …hearing your
inner voice, being your own teacher…I’m feeling a little more at home with
myself.
I
don’t want to let the circumstances this life throws at me put me in a tailspin…that
runs out of control with negativity…I try and put things in perspective…maybe
not right away, but more sooner, than later…feel what I need to feel…then move
on. Just as the scripture says, John 8:32 – about truth…the easier it gets. I
find a lot of people want to turn and run the other way…deny, deny, deny…make
excuses and have a hard time hearing the truth…Much like a box of crayons, (I
tell my kids this ALL THE TIME) the colors in the box are what they are…if I
pull a RED crayon out and tell you it’s PINK, it doesn’t mean it’s pink…it’s
RED. What do I mean? It is what it is no matter what people say, think or do…it
doesn’t change…love You for You...No matter the color. Make sense?
I
have a busy week and making a list of “To-do’s” as we speak…what can I say…when
life is a little messy, doesn’t mean one can’t be organized…That’s Me.
See
you soon…as always…Be Good to You.
Smooches,
Lola
You have such beautiful writing. It's so poetic and rhythmic. I know the feeling of not being able to just buy whatever you want. After I quit teaching, things have gotten a little tight around our home. Well maybe tight for our standards because we are spenders and love the life of leisure. As I've been adjusting to living on one salary, God has been showing me just how wasteful we had been. The fancy cars, clothes galore, special dinners, what a waste. I'm so thankful God has reined us in and shown us what's important in life. Our family and friends, not the big gorgeous things we could buy. Stay strong. God will always make a way where there seems to be no way. : )
ReplyDeleteVonae Deyshawn
www.myvirtueplace.com
It's truly a compliment to have you say such nice things about my writing. I'm your biggest fan when it comes to your writing and think the same thing! And you know I never tell a lie...
ReplyDeleteIt has been a challenge with one income...I like to shop, remembering my shoe fetish? I find I'm humbled and when I look at everything I have...I find I want for nothing. The Lord has provided me plenty throughout the years and am blessed to have all I do...in life there are worse things. Simple pleasures are what this life is about...Thanks for being wonderful You. I'm grateful.
Lola
P.S. If you ever get your magazine going...I'll be sure to jump on board!
Has anyone ever told you that you're soothing Lola? Every time I read your blog posts they always seem so soothing. I think you gave a perfect reminder when you said "when life's a little messy, it doesn't mean you can't be organized." Sometimes our lives get totally out of control, but our minds don't have to get out of control too. I know things will look up for you and as always you're in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteXO Kelley
http://www.keepsittingpretty.blogspot.com
I giggle to myself about the soothing comment Kelley...my family tells me the same thing...I can put them to sleep if I read to them...Thanks for the prayers, as always...I love you for that...and I always keep a pen and paper at my side...if you could see me now! Look at me now...you know the ditty!
DeleteI'm a dork...just so you know...I smiled the whole time I typed this. I think I'm funny!
I admire the candidness with which you write. You just tell things the way they are and wherever it hits the reader, then so be it. I'm also trying to be at home with myself, be happy the way I am and do what I enjoy doing. Reading your blog is one of them. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. You've encouraged me to see things in their proper perspective.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the lovely compliment...I have to be in a "zone" for my flow to write...which I love! If someone were to ask me the secret to life...I'd tell them to Love You some You...seriously. Thank you for stopping by, I appreciate it.
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